Discovery

Today I realized that I am constantly being used.

I feel so weird making all of these discoveries about myself and my surroundings. Sadly, I feel quite arrogant by saying that I'm good enough to be "used", however, I am. I'm being used because I take control of the situation and I don't waste time, I get my work done, and I like to spend time with people to listen to them and talk about what they want to talk about. I'm not saying that everything must be about me, but I'm asking, why must I constantly spend my time with people who don't sincerely care about me? I never feel truly considered. So many minute things give me these feelings, we'll call them vibes, about people and lately these vibes have been working into closer friendships. Another reason to continue my search for the diamonds in the rough (:

Life is so hard, it stinks sometimes.

Pray that I have the strength to get through all of my rough spots!
God bless.

Learning to Embrace the World.

When the world begins to look gray, embrace the small rays of sun.

We all get stuck in a rut. Well, two weeks ago was my rut. The past two weeks, however, I've learned a lot about myself and I've also accomplished a lot. Last week being the first full week of school, I've become very excited about this semester! This is my time to grow and revel in my freedom. I'll go places I've never gone before, I'll do things I've never done before, and I'll meet people I've never met. I'm going to change my own life in a very big way.

This semester:

• Improvisation 1
• Vocal Techniques (a real performance class)
• FORUM! April 22!
• New friends & lots of them.
• New experiences & less fear of risk.
• more conquering my dream!
• No Distractions.Period.
• LOVE GOD ALWAYS.

It's all about changing myself by renewing what needs to be re-evaluated about myself and polishing my extraordinary qualities! It's going to be the greatest adventure of my life!

ps. this week, schnow week (: I spent tuesday & today simply sleeping, watching netflix, making valentine's cards, and sledding with my friends. BEST TWO DAYS.

There are beautiful people in this world yet they are like diamonds. You cannot tell that they are beautiful unless you give your time to reveal their beauty. There are special because you find them only after wasting your time on those who simply wish to be spectacular. Once you find them, though, your life is forever changed.